GO TIME

stay out of the sun and off the sauce until further notice have
been living in a fictional bubble pure la-la wonderland of raw
imagination projected to the invisible screen inside my skull
no applause required
silence preferred under these circumstances
ever notice how Santa and Satan are never in the same room
at the same time?
just one more reason why I believe 2 wrongs can make a right
especially in a completely virtualized world such as ours golden
techno glow existential fairytale collision of coincidence drives
a level head sideways screenshot saved for the final goodbye a
mad dog spit at midnight bottom lip split in half between first or
last gripped around memories on the run from the past history is
no longer behind but within us appearances and interpretations
images words and parallel injunctions among leery eyed warriors
enlisted to protect a vanishing code of what was once in place to
hold all of us accountable to mean what we say even though the
Creator has been dead for quite a while already "Language and
the prejudices upon which language is based are a manifold
hindrance to us when we want to explain inner processes and
drives: because of the fact for example that words really exist
only for superlative degrees of these processes and drives; and
where words are lacking we are accustomed to abandon exact
observation because exact thinking there becomes painful; and
indeed in earlier times one involuntarily concluded that where
the realm of words ceased the realm of existence ceased also.
Anger, hatred, love, pity, desire, knowledge, joy, pain - all are
names for extreme states: milder middle degrees, not to speak
of the lower degrees which are continually in play, elude us,
and yet it is they which weave the web of our character and of
our destiny."

Nietzsche, Daybreak

VANISH

what would you choose to do with 7 days to live:
from ignorance to innocence to write in such a way that gives the reader the full scope power of freedom to believe whatever it means once inside the darkness then say goodbye to life for the last time when it takes 3 beers to feel 1 some might find it my fault without knowing why as if addiction = logic + pussy + super transcendent bliss Emerson raised to the level of Thoreau no less impressive than Plato totem hyping Aristotle with prehistoric intellectual junkies consuming  toxic sophistry hard to the core unknown and 2 steps ahead of the help cunning truth from out of its essence leaving a shell ghost expression pure surface dead language shooting silence words driven ruined in shadow marks cast above incandescent light quantum lines between parallel minds End of Story almost absolutely but don't ask me of fractured metallic moment contrasting stages of self spiraling religion into philosophy into science into money into family into my final creative act "We mean that man first of all exists encounters himself surges up in the world and defines himself afterwards.  If man as the existentialist sees him is not definable it is because to begin with he is nothing.  He will not be anything until later and then he will be what he makes of himself.  Thus there is no human nature because there is no God to have conception of it.  Man simply is.  Not that he is simply what he conceives himself to be but he is what he wills and as he conceives himself after already existing - as he wills to be after that leap towards existence.  Man is nothing else but that which he makes of himself.  That is the first principle of existentialism.  And this is what people call its 'subjectivity' using the word as a reproach against us.  But what do we mean to say by this but that man is of a greater dignity than a stone or a table.  For we mean to say that man primarily exists - that man is before all else something which propels itself towards a future and is aware it is doing so.  Man is indeed a project which possesses a subjective life instead of being some kind of moss or fungus or a cauliflower."

Sartre, Existentialism And Humanism